Monday, February 5, 2018

Everything is coming real.

1. His relocation to other country for career.

It's definitely a great opportunity to be able to work in foreign country to experience different culture, meeting different people and growing one's career path.

Feeling proud to see the other half to grow further and higher in his career.


2. My promotion to higher position

It's a big challenge for me to take over a higher position. I need to be more pro-active, more observant, showing the leadership to my team members and be able to lead the team to higher achievement.

My partner is giving me a lot of confident and courages to take over the position.
But, I am still feeling worried and lack of confidence, I am not sure if I will do a good job.

Bigger role, bigger responsibilities, bigger commitment.
I will do my best and it will be a great time for me to grow, go higher and go further for my career.

3. Our journey

It is giving me a kind of mix feelings after knowing my partner will be relocating to Singapore.

The thing that borders me is not about him going down to Singapore for work.
Rather, its about our journey 2 years down the road.

I know that we can't do any planning now until he settled down in Singapore.
After he settled down, he will be getting PR eventually, the plan after that borders me.

I need assurance that I am in his plan.
LDR is not an easy thing and need both parties to work out together.

Hopefully he will realizes that and be more attentive sometimes.
We can't be communicating 7/24/365, but I hope once awhile he will give me a call or a short FaceTime to keep us going.

Well, 2018 is a tough year.
I need to stay stronger and more positive.

Jia You.

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

也许书里说的就是他。


突然觉悟了,也许就是他令我有离去的感觉。
或许书里说的那人就是他。
曾经以为的,都是我自己在沉醉于我自己的幻想世界里。
忽然觉悟了,要鼓起勇气寻找出路了。
毕竟人生的路是自己的。

勇敢吧!

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

不要太介意,不要太在乎。 
不要把事情看得太严重。 
你有你的生活节奏,不要让他的态度影响你的心情。
因为你的快乐是你自己的责任。 

过度地在意,只会苦了自己,那又何必呢。 
与其花时间和心思讨好他,不如把时间放在自己的身上。
比如读些书,参加活动增值自己的知识和地位。 
从工作上得到满足感,那会更值得。 

啊,这一点我还需要好好地学习。 

Monday, July 20, 2015

两年了

转眼间,我们已经一起两年了。 
虽然比起那鞋已经三五十年的,我们的两年比不上什么。
但是,这两年,来得不易啊。 

看了一本书 "Men from Mars, Women from Venus"。
这本书是讲述男人女人之间该如何相处。 
有的内容,真的把我所体验的描述得真好。 

有一句 : Whether you share your feelings in a letter or you write a letter to feel better, writing down your feeling is essential tool.
把心情的困扰写下来,真的会好很多。要不然, 很多人都不会有写日记的习惯。 

和你走过来的日子, 真的不容易。 
你的心情,忽然间越来越难抓摸,他瞬间的变成另一个人。
是我依然沉醉在我们那时的甜蜜中,还是你已经厌倦了那时的热恋? 

你说:
我不是那种善于表达自己感情的人。
我不是那种很会关心女友的人。
我不是那种浪漫的人。 
我不是。。。
*靠,为什么突然间那么多我不是呢?不浪漫,那你又送花给前女友?

听着听着,真的很想骂一句,废话。 你在给你自己找借口吗?! 
为什么一年前的你,和现在的你相差那么多呢? (其实答案我都知道,只是不愿意接受)

渐渐的我开始不会拿捏你的心情。 
你说,要相信你,不然我们再走下去也没意思。
我可以相信你,可是你必须给我一个肯定,一个认同让我对你对我们的感情有信心。
可是你就是那么的自私,不愿再付出一点点。 

你是知道我这几个月,有多么的不开心和难受。 
可是你就不愿做一点点的表示来安抚我的忧虑。 
就因为这样,我就自己寻找我要的那份满足感。
向你要着要着,你变的更反感了吧。
你的冷酷让我不知道给如何去反应。 

啊,朋友都说,你的快乐不是他的责任。 
我必须为自己寻找快乐,我必须不把重心放在你身上。 
这样是为我自己留一条后路,让我自己快乐些。 
可是亲爱的,你知道吗,我们的感情生病了。
不要忽视了好吗?



Monday, January 19, 2015

Why should i be the one?

how should one be fine and act as normal when it is really hard to pretend?

how should the work be continue when one is having difficulty on taking the partner's position?

how should this be continue when thing is getting uneasy?


Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Unhealthy

By all means, the day we started, its already an unhealthy thing for a working environment.

As the day we accept each other, I should have know and clearly know changes will come along the years.

I should have prepare myself before it happens.

I should have aware before it happens.

You should have wake up by now, thing will not change anymore and you should be accepting the fact by now.